I can't help but to feel pessimistic right at this moment. I seem to lose self-confidence in myself. I seriously need to find bits and pieces of that back. I must learn to be independent too. I should not rely so much on him. It might take me a while to do that but no matter what, I have to.
Since this is the path of life that I've chosen, out of the many pathways that I have. Come what may, I will still have to face it bravely. But when I'm back to my cave recovering, it does not mean that I'm oblivious to what's going on. I just need a break sometimes.