well, i've got a crashed birthday like amazing huh? i woke up with a really hyper mood for school and thought i could celebrate with dear after sch but guess all were crashed i walked to school smiling away cos i thought things would turned out good but well...
so yea. i received a phone call dat totally spoiled my day he told me he won't be coming down and stuff like dat my friends told me not to think so much it might turn out to be a surprise but guys, girls are sensitive creatures, for some i mean and im one hell sensitive one nobody understands how terrible i felt they even wondered why do i have to get so angry for come on man. i've planned to spend the rest e day with him and yet, he came and give me shit i rejected my other dates just for that cos i just wanted to spend time with him to spend my birthday with just him dat's my only wish but it was dashed what can i do? nobody understands that they just don't im glad for my classmates they were really nice peeps they bought a cake and tried to cheer me up they consoled me, telling me that things would be fine at that moment, i could only put up a front for i noe, deep inside, my heart is tearing
he panic, called her many times i didn't want to reject her but i was really pissed at that moment she understood, im so glad for that she knew what i was thinking, she knew how terrible i felt i cried thrice in sch, one during shower, thrice outside i've never cried so much before especially on my birthday i couldn't care much i just let my emotions take control
he don't seems to understand why am i feeling this way so im the bad guy now he has done so much, yes i know that i can see his efforts and preparation i felt e pain inside when i've to treat him so harshly boy, i do feel the pain people have seen what he has done, they saw so i've became the sinful one nobody understands why am i feeling this way he thought otherwise of me i tried to explain but he refused to accept guys are guys i can't do much about that
has anyone ever tried to understand the situation im in has anyone ever tried to understand why im always hiding feelings to myself has anyone ever tried to understand why am i doing so has anyone.....
i've been killed emotionally to heal, it wont be easy to recover, it takes more than that to forget, it all depends